Thursday, January 26, 2012



Oh, to live in a fairytale where happily ever afters exist.
Or where Rumpelstiltskin exists to make a deal with you, just one strand of hair in exchange for a potion to forget that one person.
Sometimes I forget myself and overstep those perfect boundaries.
Mistakenly expecting others to care as much as I do.
Thinking I know them so well when I actually don't.
Who do I even understand? Not even myself.

My new handphone wallpaper! Isn't it awesome? :)

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Treasured memories

Who says you can't have reunion dinner away from home? Have it with friends!
All dressed in red :)
The wonders of Iphone self-camwhoring

As you can see, (or maybe not, so I will point it out anyway), I cut my fringe! Or my housemate Serene help me cut it. She's so talented :) New year, new hairstyle!
It's been long since I had blunt bangs. The last time I had it was in 2008. Then because of my worsening acne problems, I tried not to cover my face with my hair, hence no fringe.
But I want to feel like my old self again, so, bangs it is again! Let's see if it works.
(seriously I have no idea what I meant either, about feeling like my old self...but just don't want to look like my old self with my horrible skin)
P.S: Photo credits to Pei Ying, Jeanie, Amy

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Happy Dragon CNY!!!

I still remember the last dragon year 12 years ago, where people made such a huge fuss about having dragon babies, and it was the beginning of the new millenium, in the year 2000, depending which way you look at it. How times have flown!! So many things have changed. Then a child, now an adult.

My family's love for me is the only constant I have in my life right now.
Miss them much!!
Happy Chinese New Year :)
Nicest CNY family picture I can find over the years.. And nope, not interested in uploading any photos of my extended family, but I miss them too of course. 
Wait for me next year!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

I confess that...

I miss you...
I.... don't know how to smile. More.







I wish I knew.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Something to remember...

"Wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.
Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen." - Mary Schmich

Tuesday, January 10, 2012



I want to attend a masquerade ball at least once in my life.

Masquerade!
Paper faces on parade.
Masquerade!
Hide your face so the world will never find you!


Masquerade!
Seething shadows.
Breathing lies.
Masquerade!
You can fool any friend who ever knew you!

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Happy 2012!

Happy 2012!!
I spent my last 2 days of 2011 and first 2 days of 2012 in beautiful London. Where did you spend yours?
At Portobello Market. Lots of pretty and quaint stuff

Covent Garden! Also lots of cute arts and crafts
M & M World! Xin Ning so cute :)
In the Queen's theatre for Les Mis, totally unplanned, but also my favourite musical experience!

Peter Pan in Kensington Gardens!! My childhood crush. I always wanted Peter to take me to Neverland when I was younger because I never wanna grow up..
Harry Potter section in Harrods. Harrods is really so pretty! I could literally just window-shop there all day.
posing with wands :P
the best turnip cake I had in UK, in Cha Cha Moon

Countdown at London Eye! My favourite colour :)
make-believe Northern Lights
V & A Museum
at Winter Wonderland. Didn't play anything because it was too expensive! But there's still a hint of Christmas atmosphere in the air...
some boyfriend trying to win a fluffy toy for his girlfriend. (total stranger, but he look so yeng :p)
dim sum at Jade Garden! (sorry Zi Fen for that line on the wall...)
the best frozen yoghurt from Pinkberry at Selfridges! Chocolate flavour with strawberries, cookies + cream and peanut butter crunch topping, me love :)
our last night in London (last night out of my own willing) watching the Phantom of the Opera!
I dunno what else to say, except that I'm currently obsessed with The Phantom of the Opera since then and have rewatched the 25th anniversary musical plus the 2004 movie after that night. And am still listening to the music now. I've forgotten how in love I am with this story and its music since I was 14 or 15. But I enjoyed Les Miserables musical better because it made me cry at the ending. I missed my daddy so much at that point. (google the story if you wanna know why, I won't spoil it for anyone who hasn't watch it). But my favourite song from Les Mis is "On My Own".
I love him
But everyday I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world would go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known.

I love him, but only on my own.

"Do You Hear the People Sing" is also a nice song. But I don't know why I never really watched this musical when my dad played the dvd when I was younger. Probably because its quite a sad story and the songs aren't as catchy as the Phantom. But what I loved about Les Mis was that I could understand the story fully just by listening to the lyrics of the song (it's not so "opera" style so the lyrics were quite clear). Yay. Had an awesome night with Xin Ning and Les Mis.


My favourite Phantom of the Opera scene! I remember I blogged about this last time when I first watched the movie (about 2005 or 2006?) but that blog entry is lost forever. Too bad. I really would love to know how much my reflections about this movie have changed since then. Not much I suppose, because "All I Ask of You" is still my favourite song. However, I love the reprise version better. Actually, to be more accurate, I love the version of "All I Ask of You" as heard by the Phantom because it sounds more bittersweet (as it should be, listening to the one you love sing about loving someone else). But I love all the other songs too like "Masquerade", "Angel of Music", "Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again" and "Past the Point of No Return". "Prima Donna" is especially lovely, because it has such a waltzy feeling. Sorry, I know I'm such a nerd, listening to such songs..but I love them. They're a part of my childhood, thanks to my daddy who always played Andrew Lloyd Webber's music when I was young. :P The musical was alright, I guess the balcony seat was too high but I absolutely loved the music in the theater. I got several thrills when I heard the theme song play. 

Okay, this post is supposed to be like..a happy new year welcome. Not a review of the musicals or my current obsession with them. So I had a fantastic new year in London! It's like a cheaper version of Paris. All the nice food plus shopping and night-life. 2011 passed by really fast. I suppose it was because nothing changed much in terms of location. And my feelings are pretty much the same. Happy, sad, like that. Pik chik at times. -.- it shouldn't be really because i'm mostly happy when you're there.
Anyway, I haven't found whatever that was that has always been evading me (in reference to what I hoped 2011 will bring me) so...let whatever may be may be this year. No hopes, no expectations. Except to graduate! And find a good job. (sigh, sound so old when I say all this) I foresee this year would seem quite long because..my 2nd half of the year would probably be back in Msia! It'll be something like 2010 all over again. 
Well, here's to a good 2012 anyway! Let the awesome fireworks I saw at the London Eye be the start of something new [HSM reference] :)

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you.
Share each day with me, each night, each morning,
Anywhere you go, let me go too,
Love me, that's all I ask of you.

P.S: I should post more photos up on FB. Which reminds me, I have not even posted anything from my France trip. Let's just say I'm getting a tad lazy. Sigh. Holiday's over! Time to start mugging.. Tata!
I will treasure these last 6 months of my university life, that's my resolution this year. :)


Think of me, think of me fondly when we've said goodbye.
Remember me, once in awhile, please promise me you'll try.
On that day, that not so distant day, when you are far away and free, if you ever find a moment, 
please spare a thought for me.
Think of me, think of me waking silent and resigned.
Imagine me, trying so hard to put you from my mind.
Recall those days, look back on all those times, think of all the things we'll never do-
there will never be a day, when I won't think of you.  -Think of Me, POTO (told cha I was obsessed)