Sometimes I really can be too impulsive.. Oh well..

Perhaps its for the best. No more facade. Reality will always be a wake-up call.

oh dear,

did i just make a major mistake with my hair, again? T.T

Who knew that Lonely Boy was and is the reason for everything?

XOXO, Gossip Girl~

I actually do miss this show despite only watching the finale of Season 6.. :) Nearly perfect ending.

miracles do happen

because I unbelievably passed my exam despite making such a major mistake! just be thankful and move on. If the world ends on Friday, at least I will die happy..LOL.

P.S: Thanks for Lousey, aha

P.P.S: Hope this someone else gets better soon too!

Heart, be strong.

I have to handle stress better...Please.

the little things

I sleep too early nowadays. I have nothing to talk about except driving and work. I like driving. I hate parking. I like my car. I like my colleagues. They're fun and helpful. I like working, sometimes. I love sleeping. I miss skyping. I miss Xin Wei. But I am glad she's having such a nice holiday. I wanna go out with Lynn and Abi! I wonder how is Mei Chen. I wanna group skype with my buddies! I miss Li Ying, Choo Wei, Alex, Amy and Zi Fen. Thanks for always being there for me when I need someone to talk to even though we're far apart! I don't wanna grow old and end up having to take so many drugs. I feel sad when I see cancer drug prescriptions for kids. I still wonder how you're doing sometimes.

P.S: if you think I am mad at you, you're probably right but yet if you think I have a reason to be mad at you, why don't you say anything? Well, just let the assumptions keep on going, I am tired of explaining myself to you. You can think whatever you like. And if you think this is about you, you're probably right. Everything is always about you,isn't it. And no, I am not going to ask you about it, because I don't even know why you would assume things about me but yet not say anything. Lets just keep pretending everything is fine. Since you can do that, I can do it too. But just know I am pretty disappointed as well. I thought you knew me better. Perhaps you don't know that I can change and am not the person you think I used to be. Or perhaps you just never grew up.

PPS: I love my friends. Even though I can't be forever 21 anymore, at least I know who still cares to call me, wish me, and catch up with people who I haven't spoken to in a long time :) and I also love my colleagues who were so nice to take me out even though they only know me two weeks, hehe.

PPPS: Its that time of year again, Christmas! I love Christmas deco :D

drip-drop

Its raining right now! Early morning rain, without thunder and lightning, kinda like most of the rain Glasgow produces.. Which makes me think of all the gloomy days that actually consisted the majority of days in Glasgow, and the times we had..

I wouldn't go back though,lol..I have this weird way of preserving the memories I have of a certain place by not returning in the future, so that no changes can mar the memories I have..as such, I have never even visited any of my previous schools after graduation, and have no idea what my secondary school in JB look like now..heard it changed a lot.

Oh well, just a thought.

“佛说，生命中的许多东西是可遇不可求，刻意强求的得不到，而不曾被期待的往往会不期而至。因此，要拥有一颗安闲自在的心，一切随缘，顺其自然，不怨怒，不躁进，不过度，不强求，不悲观，不刻板，不慌乱，不忘形，不以物喜，不以己悲。”

看到朋友写此句子，觉得蛮值得学习。另外，因为在寻找别一些激励的美言，无意中也给我发现以下的句子：

“感情再深，恩义再浓的朋友，天涯远隔，情义，终也慢慢疏淡。不是说彼此的心变了，也不是说不再当对方是朋友，只是，远在天涯，喜怒哀乐不能共享，原来，我们已是遥远得只剩下问候-问候还是好的，至少我们不曾把彼此忘记。”

I guess this can't be avoided. First few months the conversations will be daily, then weekly, then once every two weeks, sooner or later it'll be once a month, once a few months... and then once a year or twice, probably on each other's birthdays, lol. But such is life. 

P.S: 哎呀，希望你快点换新电话啦！就可以时时 whatsapp, 不用等到礼拜天回你前几天的话 ;p 但至少一个礼拜都有问候一次，我已经很满足了，嘻嘻 :)

random ramblings

Today is the first time, that I feel too tired to go out for a spontaneous yumcha session when my friends ask me to.. What am I turning into?! Old and easily tired person? Aih..

On the other hand, there is always something to look forward to each week :D last week's bubba gump outing and KL day trip was fun! Too bad mei chen and leng weren't there..

My phone is my most useful possession now..its faster than my laptop so I surf on it, blog on it, read on it, watch videos on it.. I love my phone :)

Faerie Glen, Isle of Skye.

Sometimes all we need is a little bit of hope and faith to find the magic in everything.
I need to believe this. 

Start of something new :)

It's been awhile since I've blogged!! But I've had so many distractions (good ones) the past few weeks that I couldn't be bothered to write anything. . plus it's no fun that I can't post that many pictures anymore. Anyway, in a nut shell, hmm, I've been out with Xin Wei and the others nearly every week (I think this is the first week I've gone without seeing any of them since I've been back =/), know people in the most unconventional way (I won't tell here, ask me instead =p), actually made a new good friend through said unconventional way, had a hilarious/weird experience meeting said friend (lol), did a part-time job for 2 days last week (trained for 3 days, LOL, but it was fun telesurveying! Plus working so near my place too...but since it's illegal for government servants to work part-time, I had to quit, sadly [I don't wanna take any risks...]) and finally have a full-time job now!! Am now a provisionally-registered pharmacist at Hospital University Kebangsaan Malaysia :D I couldn't ask for a better location despite it being my 3rd choice, and anyway it was a very funny way of how I picked PPUKM instead of PPUM. My first choice was Selangor (obviously), 2nd was Hospital KL and 3rd I just put a medical centre. I didn't really have any high hopes of getting it and I was debating between PPUM or PPUKM (just one letter difference, but PPUM is actually in PJ and much nearer to my place), but due to personal reasons (very funny reasons at that) I picked PPUKM! And I got it. Yay. Since I haven't got a car for now, my dad drops me off every morning and I take the LRT back (1 hour -.-) But, IMU is actually further (same line, further station), so no complaints, I'm used to travelling by LRT anyway. But I shall get a car soon! However, due to Cheras's bad traffic, I suspect even driving will also take me about an hour or two to get home. . . 

It's been fun learning so far, and I have great helpful colleagues, and made a very good friend since my first day too (another new PRP like me, she's a really sweet and pretty malay girl! We've been everywhere together since the first day that the other senior PRPs said we're like twins, lol, but starting today we got separated because of different groups for lunch break :( ) There's another PRP but he's only reporting next week so haven't met him yet. But so far the senior PRPs are really friendly and helpful, and I'm getting multi-lingual! Because most of the pharmacist assistants are malay, I speak malay too; when speaking to malay patients, gotta speak malay too, but when speaking to chinese patients especially the elderly, gotta speak cantonese/mandarin (I'm so glad now that at least I know how to speak mandarin) and then calling doctors to confirm prescription changes, I speak english! But my poor feet, sigh, reminds me of my Paris trip, where they hurt like dunno what because of standing all day. . my toes feel like they're dropping off at the end of the day.

There, a super long post to make up for not writing more. I hope that I get more confident with more experience as time passes. . I spotted an error in a prescription today for the first time in my working-life and got to officially confirm with the doctor! Feels nice to know that I can make a difference for the patient. But I also made a lot of other careless mistakes (my maths is horrible and sometimes I fill more/less pills than required. . .) the pharmacist assistants are actually very knowledgeable though, more so than me, and I really appreciate their existence. I'm grateful I get to stay another year at home though (save money, hehe). Till then, au revoir!

Miss you guys!!

我的心，渐渐没那么痛了。。。:)

为了能彻底地放下旧的，就去找新的娱乐，但不知还可玩得起多久？

P.S: 原来时间与距离斗不过梦中的回忆。。。

心很痛，但又能和谁诉苦？

To a very special person. .

Happy Birthday!!!

I just realized, that never once have I celebrated your birthday with you on the day itself since the past 4 years I've known you; in fact, these past 2 years, we've both been in different countries on the day of your birthday. . this day last year I was in UK and you were still in Msia, now it's vice versa. So, we must set a goal, one day we must celebrate your birthday together okay! In the same place, on this day, I don't care how old we both are at that time. . . But whenever that is, I hope we're still as close as we are now. :)

I don't know if I've ever told you how much I appreciate our friendship. Sure, we've had some misunderstandings/disagreements before (tell me which friendship hasn't?) but the good times far outnumber the bad times. I'm gonna write this down here so that I can remember always why this girl (still girl, or you want to be called woman? Somehow I can imagine Pei Ying's voice calling you that... lol) is so special to me. Haha. Because she is the 

- only one who reminds me of my mom (in a good way, because both of you always make me see sense when I'm being irrational :p)
- only one who find me the most often in my room when we were staying together, and have seen most of my worst times as well. . . but still comfort me anyway

- only one who still kinda skype me everyday the last year I wasn't staying together with you all, and keep me company during assignments/studying for exams . .even when there was a bee attack in the room! Omg I can never forget this (okay, actually I did, I only remembered when I viewed back our FB friendship when looking for any decent pics of us). But still it was so funny!! A huge bee invaded my room, and okay I panicked, so I skype-call Choo Wei and keep asking her what I should do. . When the bee started flying around, I just ran out of the room screaming, then came back and ask Choo Wei where she last saw the bee flying through my skype webcam. Oh and in the end, thanks to her brilliant suggestion, I vacuumed the bee (I know, I sound cruel, but in my defense the bee was really huge, as big as my palm, no exaggerations, and didn't seem to want to fly out of my room) y'see, this is proof our friendship transcends distance, lol.

- only one who seem to remember most of my likes and dislikes food-wise. Lol. Okay lah, maybe not the only one, Zi Fen and Amy too, because we stay together so long we kinda know each other's likes and dislikes. . =D

- one who gave me a new nickname called cheah kit -.- 

- the most non-petty friend I know who seems to be considerate enough to jaga most people's feelings and make them feel loved :) 

There is so much more I could write but I don't want to make such a lengthy post. Just know that you are special to me, and you seem to be a much better friend for me than I've been for you . . Anyway, have a good birthday (sorry I remind you that you're old..) and hope everything continues going smoothly for you in your life. 

认识你是我的福气！ ;)

情不自禁

Hah, now instead of uploading pics on my blog, I have to steal from FB so that FB can host them for me instead. So picture credits to whichever friends I stole them from =D

Mei Chen, have an awesome post-grad year studying for your Masters in Edinburgh =) 

I really miss the UK but this bunch of lovely ladies make me love being here so much as well that I don't wanna leave anymore. I guess apart from family, my surrounding friends are what will determine which place I love to stay the most. It's not the place that counts but the people.

P.S: I'm practicing my new no-teeth smile. Is it nicer? =p

We used to play with the burst shot mode, now it's the smile detector mode on Xin Wei's camera!! Nobody was available to be our cameraman, and nobody knew how to used the timer, so smile detector it is! The camera just automatically takes our pics whenever anybody smile. LOL. But ended up most if not all the pics, someone was blur. Haha.

Abi is so funny in this one =D

Happpieeee smiles :) :)

When

there's nobody to dream of in real life, then dream of fictional characters =D 


Ahh I love him! His smile, his eyes, his face, his hair, his fashion sense, his character, his everything.

翟有聲, Vincent - the character's name, not the actor. because it's the character i like. :)

I'm wide awake

有些事情，虽然抱着心理准备了，等着预料的结局，但发生时难免还会觉得心痛，心酸。但也许这个结局是最完美吧，伤心只不过是 the finality of it all. =)

Gravity hurts, till i woke up on the concrete.

I know I said I wanted to change my url, but, I am at a loss for any nice names. And anyway, changing the url won't make a difference, I think I might have exceeded my image hosting bandwidth in Picasa Web Albums (okay, maybe only 1MB space left), and I think the only way to rectify that is to purchase storage or change my account - both too lazy to do. Oh well, I guess my future posts shall either be picture-less or just less posts, hehe. 

I went to myBurger Lab last Saturday! And I loved the burgers there, very nice!! Although I'd recommend going with friends because the wait was like 1 hour, and time passes faster when you're with awesome company. Maybe because I am a mushroom and cheese lover, so I loved my burger with the cheese and enoki mushrooms. And their fries were quite special too, with the sauce. Oh oh and I saw Reuben Kang there! I mean, he's just part of Jinnyboytv videos, and maybe a bit popular (dunno how popular, I think only Hui Lynn and Carolyn recognized him too, the others (my friends only I mean) didn't, lol) but I didn't take any pictures lah. Maybe if Jin was there too, I might. (I checked Reuben's twitter and it seemed that Jin was there that night too! But I didn't see him =(  ) It's just kinda like a novelty seeing Youtube personalities in real life, especially since their videos only became like really popular the last 2 years I was in Glasgow. But I always watch their videos because they film it in places like 1U and Taylors College, which made me really homesick. And I think I spotted DanKhoo a few times in 1U too, always wearing a beanie. . . 

Pictures of the lovely company! (copied from FB)

Jinnyboy's latest video!! And the one I saw is Reuben, the P driver, lol. . . reminds me of myself =/

Sigh, I still very scared of driving, how how how. Nevertheless, I have to learn properly, because mom's gonna get me a new car when I start working, which I have to pay myself anyway, and I sure don't want to scratch a new car or anything. . .

Random dessert picture: Affogato!

Really craving for it again, it's vanilla ice-cream with espresso, yum yum. 

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

P.S: 幸亏你还没我想象的那么陌生，好朋友。。。:) 但是万事小心吧，不要令我担心。 

三个字

谢谢你。

Yay, if only driving were this easy.

I drove again for the first time after 4 years the other day, then went home and had a nightmare about being in an accident. Lalala. Time to practice more. Then I can drive you okay Xin Wei? =D I think by that time won't be die in sleep already, lol, kidding. . . by the way, i feel the same about you too =) so don't worry. I'm the lucky one to have you for a friend because you're really one of a kind, one of those reallly super-duper rare friends I can trust 100%.

有些所谓的好朋友，后来才发现我真的不认识你，我错觉了。

P.S: i think this might be the last time i blog with this url. i just feel like changing it. if i do change, my fb will probably reflect the change. buh-bye.

珍惜。 。 。

每一分每一秒。
眼前人。
现在所拥有的。

所以我还在珍惜现在无忧无虑的日子，变懒书虫 ：D
但是就太多时间想你了。。。

unpacking my shipped luggage. . .

is like opening my Christmas present! I can't remember what I packed in the bag 3 months ago (mostly winter clothing and items of not really big sentimental value because I damn scared the luggage get lost at sea or something; yet there are still a few items of sentimental value which are too large to pack in my hand carry, but I very short memory, so cannot remember what) hence, seeing my old stuff which has painstakingly endured 2 years overseas with me and stuff which I never expected to see again evokes some good feelings!! =)

Maybe I should take pictures of all those items so they'd be immortalized forever in pictures then I can remember better. :)

Sigh..

sometimes i really dunno..why..

why am i so weak? so easily..hurt.

stubborn yet ultimately lose anyway.

you win without even trying.

i try but only succeed in failing.

Highlights of the week

Met up with Gaik Cheng again, at Midvalley, with Amy and May Hwa. May Hwa left before I took these pictures so I don't have a pic with her =( Amy I know you love me so much you decided to wear a shirt with my name on =D Hehe.

My new Starbucks replacement! I really love this mocha frappe from McCafe :D But then again, frappe isn't my favourite drink anymore, I much prefer bubble milk tea! And there are so many milk tea shops around here now. I like to chew chew the pearls, ngiam ngiam.

Xin Wei's early birthday celebration! I learnt a lot of things that night, namely, I don't like dogs who jump up on me and lick lick (naughty Hiro!) but I like when Abi's puppy Sherlock snuggled into my "ahem" because it's so cutee!! Sniff sniff better than lick lick. And I cannot sleep in an air-conditioned room the whole night despite drinking so much. . I just can't. Too cold. Or maybe I just didn't drink enough to be knocked out cold. Whatevs. Cold temperature isn't my thing. . .

Anyway I have so much more that I want to write, in fact, there are two drafts I haven't posted but I feel that a light-hearted post is sufficient for now. Ugh, I'm aching all over now, is it because I did this?

P.S: Obviously just posing. Nobody in their right minds would wear a jean skirt to do pole dancing, including me.
P.P.S: Sigh. . . I just miss

don't forget me =)

Yesterday evening was a happy one because I spent it with 2 of my most favourite people from DJ. Check out the wording on their shirts!

dearest Xin Wei and beloved Michelle :)

I can't believe we have actually known each other for 9 years already! And we're still as nonsensical as ever. . . But somehow we never seem to actually spend most of that 9 years being together in the same state, I just noticed. . . I spent 3 years in Johor, 2 years in UK, and now Michelle's going to be in UK for at least 5 years. . .Why is UK taking all my favourite people away from me? =( At least Xin Wei still here

Thanks for your sound advice all the time, I will miss you so so much.

P.S: Don't forget me okay!! I will go London to kacau you for sure :D

as July goes by... :)

Before I start, here's a picture for Choo Choo to see!! Me and dearest Li Ying :)

We met up today in Subang Empire!! Different from back in UK ma? :) We can actually go sleeveless here!

Anyway, I feel much more inclined to blog properly now after the interview for a government post is over! Fingers crossed and please pray for me that I can pass the interview and get a job in a hospital near my home! For I love staying at home now, please don't uproot me for a second time this year. . .

So what happened in July? I can barely remember. . . Can't believe it has already been 3 weeks since I was home. Sure, I miss Glasgow, I miss London, I miss UK, but every fairytale must come to an end. At least I have the memories, but one musn't keep living in the past. . .

Hmm, I seldom bring my camera out nowadays, so whatever pictures I have are phone camera pictures, which are not too clear. Anyway it's bad to just let time pass by and not remember what I have done because that just means I didn't do anything worth remembering -.- so let's look at some pictures.

Went out with Hui Leng, Xin Wei, Hui Lynn, Abigail and Mei Chen at Paradigm Mall just 3 days after I was back. We had Starbucks which Xin Wei very kindly treated us! Pity half my drink had to spill, but I don't really mind, because it means less calories for me! Anyway Starbucks is so freakin expensive now, it used to be around RM 11-13 2 years ago but now it's RM 14-17. I won't go again unless it's half price or something. And somehow, I'm not as fond of frapps as I used to be. . . In fact, I'm not very keen on eating now, I wonder why. Just duwan to be fat, hehe. This was the first week of July.

Second week. . . I really can't remember what I did. Think I accompanied my mom most days and live the life of a tai tai, go look at diamonds, window shop, have tea with friends, it's really a very nice life; I want to find a husband who can give me this kind of tai tai life too. . . But I don't think I have that 福气.

3rd week, ah yes, I remembered I went to Wangsa Maju twice. First was to go meet Gaik Cheng, whom I haven't seen for a year! Y'know, with all the crime rates increasing lately, I was kinda apprehensive about taking the LRT to Wangsa Maju alone, summore I dress so crappy if I'm travelling on public transport. Deflect attention ma, hehe. I didn't know LRT uses tokens instead of paper tickets now! Such a noob. Cannot buy tix from the counter summore, have to buy from the machine. We had sushi at Festival City Mall! Which incidentally, I wasn't very excited about either. Shit, I used to be such a food person, what happened to me?!

Oh and I also visited Royal Selangor Pewter factory. I think this is a half-decent picture of me that doesn't look quite that fat. And my long hair.

The second time I went to Wangsa Maju was to try the burgers that people apparently had to wait 3 hours for. The only reason I have a picture of my burger was because I just wanted to see what was in it, as it was too dark there to see anything else (it's a roadside stall with only streetlamps for light). The burger was quite filling. But since I'm not a food person anymore, I can't say for sure if it's really nice or not. . .

Oh and I went out with Wen Jo too! She's the only person in the world I would go out at 10pm for. Because I'm a very paranoid person, I don't like to go out at night anymore due to all those crimes, unless someone fetches me and drops me home after. But anyway it was awesome catching up with my primary school best friend whom I haven't seen for 2 years. And I'm so glad I was persistent enough to keep asking her out even though we haven't talk for ages. But some friends, you just know that you shouldn't forget them. . .

This week I haven't done much because was nervous for the interview. . . So happy with those who remembered me mentioning it and wished me luck though! Of course, the one person whose words meant most to me I didn't hear from, but it's alright. . . I've switched my emotional investment to stories and drama! I am a TVB fangirl again! What to do, internet too slow to stream any English dramas, so I've taken to watch Astro and watch TVB shows with mommy dearest. My current favourite is Witness Insecurity! Super love the themesong, and Bosco is so yeng! Linda's character was likeable at first, but kinda annoy me afterwards. . . Can't she see that the guy has no interest in her whatsoever? But why she still thinks he's perfect and wait for him? Stupid stupid stupid. Just like someone I know. I don't want to ever be that stupid. I hope. I know the ending episode is out already but I haven't watch it. But I heard it's a pretty sad ending. Sigh. 

I really have to go out and meet more people. Else I'm gonna start imagining Bosco is my boyfriend. Not that he isn't available now, poor him just broke up with his girlfriend. . .Okay la, I think I'm too sleepy because of all this nonsense. . . G'night!

即来之，则安之

我终于领悟了三寸天堂这首歌，真的很有意思的。。。

不再看天上太阳透过云彩的光，

不再找约定了的天堂，

不再叹你说过的人间世事无常，

借不到的三寸日光，

那天堂是我爱过你的地方。

希望我能做到吧！

我最愛看你笑　眼裡沒壞事
日夜伴在身邊　說不出再見
為著互贈幸福　差一些　差一些
過住的不捨　不牽掛在這
下站就是幸福　一路漫步
我信一天總會遇到

This is such a nice song to dance to. And fall asleep to, which I will do soon, because I'm too sleepy to write more. . . :)

Since I came back, people have said various things about me. Some said I got darker, and they wondered why, because isn't Glasgow supposed to be sunniless and gloomy all the time? I think it's because of those few sunny days in London, I've been out too much and did not put any sunblock. Some said I slimmed down, or more like "shrunk"? I don't know... I suspect it's because my hair was so long it kinda dwarfed me and made me look shorter. But nvm, the happiest compliment I received was that my hair was nicer, smoother, when long!!! And they envy my long hair :) :) Then what did I go and do yesterday?

I CUT IT SHORT (because I felt that my long hair was too heavy, and anyway it's not that short, I told the hairdresser "medium" length), cut it nvm, if the newer hairstyle was nice, I wouldn't mind. But I freakin super dislike my hair now!!! Ask him to style it for me and it come out like UGHHHHHHH, GEIK SEI.

Very mang zhang when I look at myself in the mirror now. 

This is just going to be a rant.

I am in no good mood to write a happy post.

Still grieving for my hair.

Sigh.
They say you never appreciate something until its gone, that is so true :(

storytime!

I went to Hogwarts!!

And Hogwarts was situated in the Scottish Highlands.

Studying at Hogwarts :)

Lalala.

Ok la, 2nd pic was at Glencoe. And the 3rd and 4th pictures were taken at a college in Oxford! (my dream uni, sigh) Balliol College.

What have I been doing so far? Been out with friends, accompany mummy high tea with her friends :) Eating! But I don't have so many cravings like in the past and eat less. Duwan fat. 

Anyway, more pics to come! 

P.S: I changed my smartphone screen protector, and the phone seem like new now! Should have gotten the clear plastic cover in the first place. . .Having a lot of fun playing with it again, changing my launcher! Let's just call it a new start =) 

I love pictures of the Milky Way!! I reallllllyy want to lie underneath a clear night sky, watching the stars and just dreaming =) 

Just smile :)

The internet speed, is killing me slowly. Proof? Guess how long it takes me to watch a 40 minute episode of Drop Dead Diva. 2 hours. I don't know why the video just loads until the 30th minute and stop. Then I'd watch until then, and have to wait again for it to finish streaming, which takes ages after that...

I wanted to post some pictures and blog about my last trip in UK - around London and Scotland - but I am too sleepy now. I'll only post one picture though, to remind myself how blessed I am.

When I left Malaysia 2 years ago to study in UK, I had 3 close friends send me off - Wen Jo, Xin Wei and Hui Lynn.

When I left Glasgow on my last day to take the train to London (because I was flying back from Heathrow), I also had 2 close friends send me off!! :) :)

=)

my beloved home of 2 years.. and you of course

:)

My last night in Glasgow.

Can't believe it has been 1 and 3/4 yrs.

There were ups and downs, but I only want to remember the ups, the fun times we had, the studying together, jokes... Didn't know I could be so attached to these group of people so so much...

Its not Glasgow I will miss, but the student life I had here with you guys. But life has to move on. Thanks for the memories!

Lots of kisses and hugs to Li Ying, Choo Wei, Zi Fen, Alex, Amy, Pei Ying, Hui Wen, Jeanie...

P.S: I know its weird that I haven't made any close local Scottish or English friends despite being here for 2 yrs, but oh well, I guess I am anti-social afterall..

P.P.S: Born To Die keeps playing in my head now, i wonder why..but i really miss the time i first listened to and got obsessed about this song..

Convocation!

Finally, I am a Master of Pharmacy with merit degree-holder! All those exams in the past, starting from UPSR, PMR, SPM and SAM has finally meant something - towards achieving a university degree. Where to next? Only God knows. :) 

Somehow, after convocation today, after treasuring all the bittersweet moments of graduating together with good friends I've made these 4 years and knowing that we have to part, I just can't wait to go back home now. Back to warmer weather. Yay! (seriously, this is the suckiest summer ever in Glasgow; not that I've experienced that many summers here, only the second time, but oh how I miss last year's summer weather! It's still around the 15s degrees here, and there is no heating to switch on in the hotel, ugh, it practically still feels like late winter/early spring)

Family family family time. I miss them, I really do, and knowing that I still have quite a lot of time to spend with them makes me feel safe. Parents, as I grow older, so would they. Sigh. I don't want to grow old because I don't want to see them grow older as well. Can't time just stand still for now? At least I know that for the next couple of years I will probably be in the same country as them.

And finally, to my friends in Malaysia, I know I've neglected you guys quite a bit, please forgive me? (Btw if any of you are wondering, my MSN activity now is practically non-existent and I only ever use Skype, so...any mode of online communication I do is usually through Skype now, hehe, not that I don't want to keep in touch but MSN is laggy and frankly doesn't interest me anymore) Can't wait to hang out with you guys again!! But please no jungle activities, they scare me :(

:)

P.S: last week i said that a certain post was to be my last, i lied...hey, who knew the hotel has wifi? or that i could use the giffgaff sim as a hotspot? anyway writing and pouring out my feelings is therapeutic :) and somehow i doubt that work can be this much interesting to write anymore as "moments that count" . . . so better write more about any interesting things now

P.P.S: what has university taught me? to sum it up, i guess that i can say i have much more confidence in myself, learnt more about people and life, mature a bit more and (hopefully) also manage my feelings better? hah, in any case i don't regret anything i said or did because i never expected anything more, i just know that it's nice to feel loved :) and i just want you to know that.

P.P.P.S: everyone has different paths to follow. i should remember that and not compare myself to anybody; just follow my heart and let fate decide the rest.

:(

i just can't seem to let you go, yet...

memories

i miss home, but i wonder which has been "home" for so long. i suppose home is where the heart is, but where is my heart?

waiting for the 0539 train at Euston now reminds me of the previous time i have been here. 6 months! how fast time flies. memories everywhere. memories i miss. but its the company that counts the most though! being kicked out of the station, running to king cross station in the wind and rain whilst another umbrella is ruined..this time i get to leisurely wait with my family though but it isn't half as exciting, lol.

i won't forget the memories and feelings i felt but i must be positive! time to go back and make some new ones :)

just give me one last trip down memory lane in Glasgow these few days!

p.s: i miss you very much

writing in the dark

sigh, i hate this feeling, the feeling that i am stupid,irrational,and that i haven't changed at all for the better in matters of the heart. 9 years ago i fret and worry over the changes my moving away would bring me, 9 years later i am still the same old dumb dumb kitty cat who dreads such changes. why can't i stop being so stubborn?

i still remember those letters. and you.

I really really love flowers :)

生活就是将啦，一时任性可改变一切。变化是好是坏，只有时间能作证。我相信是好的，因为我可无悔地继续走呀，不必想“如果”，不必隐瞒，反正我已经没什么好失去的，因为离别是新故事的开始。

Emo musings and reflections aside, I really enjoyed my past few days in London so far! I know I won't have time to update anymore after this, so this post might likely be my last that I will write in UK before I go back. Truth be told, I've fallen in love with this country, the weather (when it's not too cold, but to be honest the last winter wasn't that bad), the people and culture (I'm not afraid to travel anywhere by myself, but sadly, I wouldn't dare to do that in my home country), the quaint old architecture, English as the main language of communication! - that I'm really reluctant to go back. U.K has always been my dream country to study in (SAM was not really my first choice because usually that path leads to Australia) but who knew I could come to UK through a twinning programme. And I really thank my parents for giving me this opportunity to come here to study. For now, I shall go back, but rest assured, one way or another, I will come back! I hope. Or maybe my fortunes shall lead me elsewhere, who knows, but whatever happens, I'll make the best of it!

Picture-time! I explored Hyde Park the last Sunday, a lavender field in Epsom and went to the Royal Ascot today! Camwhored so much because there was so much time to spare since there's no tight travelling schedule.

Somehow reminds me of Versaille!

Speakers Corner! Where people can come every Sunday to speak about everything under the sun. Course the most common topics were religion and politics...but there were racism campaigns too.

mwahh!

Rose-covered archway!

Rows and rows of pretty lavender!

Why do I have a daisy in my hair? The following pictures will reveal...

Big fat daisies in the wild!!! So awesome! I only like daisies because of...I know I have to let go but I guess I'll just hold on a little bit longer :)

Just let be me happy a little longer can?

Royal Ascot! One week of horse-racing at Ascot where Queen Elizabeth will attend everyday; and omg the fashion there, so posh! Really a little insight into British culture

Fancy hats! But what I love most are the guys costumes, in tophats and coattails! Too bad most of them are in the Royal Enclosure, I was only at the cheapest enclosure, the Silver Ring.

The Queen and Duke of Edinburgh!!

Everyone dress so posh but I didn't :( Do you know how expensive those fascinators are? I only wore sunglasses, ahaha.

my favourite number is winning!! Num 3 :D Apparently the horse, Frankel, is also the world's best racehorse atm

I'm just trying to enjoy every moment of my holidays before I enter working life, huhu T.T

So please just let me be happy a little longer?