writing in the dark

sigh, i hate this feeling, the feeling that i am stupid,irrational,and that i haven't changed at all for the better in matters of the heart. 9 years ago i fret and worry over the changes my moving away would bring me, 9 years later i am still the same old dumb dumb kitty cat who dreads such changes. why can't i stop being so stubborn?

i still remember those letters. and you.