not so perfect anymore, ain't it?

you only see what's on the surface,

but you don't really know what's happening...

unless i share it with you :)

everything comes with a balance...

so whilst most of my posts seem...happy?

trust me, there are upsetting times too...

i wanna go home....

where seeing the doctor isn't such a hassle...

where the weather is just nice (i've never felt too hot unless i'm not at home...)

where i can buy whatever i want without going through the mental calculation of x5...

i miss sitting in a car.

i miss walking out with just 1 layer of clothing.

i miss washing my clothes everyday in the washing machine.

i miss eating out.

i miss crapping with my Malaysian friends...(okay la, i know you want to see your name here Miss Chuah Xin Wei...hahaha..and Hui Lynn, Hui Leng...Mei Chen...)

i miss my sister's own stupid pillow talk at night...(haha new term)

i miss being daddy's little princess.

i miss pouring my heart out to mom...(stupid mike/connection is so bad, half the time they can't hear me...then i'd have to repeat...where got fun talking like that? rather just share the basics than more deep stuff...)

it's nearly 2 am but i can't sleep yet..so effing painful. sigh.

maybe we've been too happy the first month here and now all the bad things come one after the other? (is happy the right term? or rather, just that we adapted quickly to being in a foreign country...i'm sure nobody is happy about leaving home)

but we have each other, right?

Li Ying, be strong! really admire your spirit in going through such tough times. Thanks for always being there for me too.

And thanks to my dearest sweetest friends who care so much about me- Zi Fen, Amy, Alex, Choo Wei, Chiew Vien...

helping me from cooking for me to accompanying me to see the doctor to giving me medicine...and making me laugh, which is the best medicine of all :D

And sorry for being such a crybaby bitch lately, to mom and dad, and also...my friends...sometimes it's just hard to smile when you're in pain, be it emotionally or physically. so don't mind me if i just want to be alone...sometimes.

p.s: i miss home definitely, who wouldn't? but i would really try to adapt here and LOVE living here if i want to work here. and i know i can. :) just please, can i bring my family here? =/

Smile. :)