I have not posted anything for so long, I guess it's a blessing in disguise. not posting means I am happy, or at least not so unhappy until I have to pour my feelings online. but even now, I don't really have the words to express this root of sadness or disappointment in my heart.

I just want to tell myself, God knows best.
船到桥头自然直。
不要执着，不要担心。
just keep calm and smile. 😃