Living in denial?

I keep saying I don't care but I DO care, immensely so. But caring won't get me anywhere...except perhaps disappointment. (and I'm not talking about only one specific issue..)

Christmas is coming in 2 month's time! Hence the background ..Haha.

What does my future hold for me? I guess I can only have faith that whatever it is, it'll be awesome. :)
will you be in my future? sigh...